Thursday, June 30, 2005
Talentime
Had talentime today...15 groups altogether...overall the talentime was average...some people who does not have he talent to sing sang...not only was their vocal bad but their dressings...ish.. there were 5 judges whish consists of rambutan,3 other teachers and Aaron Aziz..can you believe it..he was there..not that i adore him or what but this year talentime was not as great as the passed few years..in fact i think this was the worst..the sound effect as usaul sucks.... those performance which i like was from psz of course ( ham,farhan,shah,fauzi and all ), leroy, muhammad nur,alfi, khairul and this chinese guy( he sang last year also dedicating a song to his gf ), i guess thats all..pity nad,ida,pard and siti..they wanted to watch but couldn't enter..malar didn't let...but jap got in though..they wanted to meet me,amal and fir but we went home..tired ah..sorry k pple...
To chris....hello...do you know which country you are living in right now...do you know how much it will take to send you the present...i'm not rich as you ok..
amal made this collage of us..nice isn't it...
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 7:17 PM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Nothing much happened today except for claris telling stories about liuli.. i dunno all the facts tough so it's better to read amal's blog for the info..haiyah..I was just browsing on friendster and saw this photo...it's a photo of us..very nice.. complement from Nur Lida...
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 10:11 PM
OK..Last thursday went outwith ida,amal,yana,siti,adil,faiz,nadia,pard,fir,hafiz and cikgu azzizah...cikgu treat us..haha..thanx eh cikgu..after that went to coffee bean...sat therefor 45 mins only cause i had tuition..darn it..i kept procrastinating the timewhen going for tuition..another five mins thats what i said to them most of thetime but in the end i still had to go for tuition..then on sat gotkenduri..i hate it when pple come my house cause it will be in a mess...hack..during bace2 time, i went to eastpoin..i'm in no mood to bace doa..hahah..jahataku ni kan..then, took lots of photo...especially with my three neices....here'sa picture of them with me...
( Me And Ika )
( Me And Ira )
( Me And Ida)
cute rite them..I love them..Cik Hajar loves you all...haha..cik seh panggil..
then today first day of skool...the night before when i waspacking my bag i actually thought that i was going back to class410..hhah...wake up hajar...come back to reality...you are now in sec5..UNDERSTAND!!!..hahah...we were given our new time table...shit siak..monday got p.e first two lesson some more..hahah..tired sey...tomorrow is kimbirthday...never buy for her any present..sorry eh kim..i'm broke..then on the 30th got claris and miss.winnie tan birthday..haaa. alot of birthday...i duuno what to buy..next month my birthday..remember pple it's on the 27th.. i'll be expecting present k..hahah
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 12:41 AM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
Boobies Outing...
Went out with amal( I HATE YOU ),nadia(love you),fir,pard,siti,fairuz,nys and hafiz.. met up at tamp platform...was supposed to meet at 12 but this hafiz i tell you like girl berdandan..lame seh datang, the last to come...but fir had to go wedding first so she met us later..then off we went to see ida,yana,bah,firdaus,nadia husna and reni perform..all the performance were great.. simply wonderful..i see alot of ex-eastviewans there.. GO EAST VIEW.. I think should make east view into a dance school or something..all of us are talented..like example of course us 'the boobies' and 'dikir girls'..hahaha..then off we went to eat at 'cahaya' far east..after eating we went our seperate ways..fir followed izam and the gang,nys went to woodland, me and amal went home,pard and hafiz go have thier ning meeting and fairuz and siti went home too...all day, everyone esp raudah and of course amal was making fun of me..tak habis habis korang eh..hhaha..but fun..took alot of photos..I WANT THE PHOTOS THAT WE TOOK PEOPLE..ESPECIALLY FIR, AKU NAK GAMBAR YANG KITE AMBIK DULU YANG KAT DALAM IZAM CAMERA OK...on the way back home..i don't know why but suddenly the topic off miss.maryanty came up..my form teacher of two years..heard from others that she is a lesbion but i thought those were just typical fake rumours but then it was true.. argh..i can't believe what i just heard..siti said that her sister tell her that 'miss.maryanty' has found her love of her life which is 'miss.marini' since her sister and ms.maryanty are friend..betul tak siti..jijik aku dengar kau..geli aku.. and raudah add on saying that she and hafiz saw ms.maryanty and ms.marini together holding hand as a coople outside..raudah called them but ms.maryanty acts as though she don't know her but ms.marini turn and talk to her..so raudah talk with marini and hafiz with maryanty...omg..i was the class leader while she was my form teacher.. then suddenly what raudah said kept me wondering..what she said was true..in all those years having her as our teacher, she has never talk nicely to anyone of her student except for me as being the moniter i tend to talk to her alot..if i talk to her sometimes she would pat or rub on my back..i would just ignore it but now thinking about it makes me feel all jitterry..argh..have to bath and cleanse my body i tell you..she's our p.e teacher some more..and i would everyday have to go to the staff room to meet her..yucks..luckily she's not teaching in our school anymore...YUCKS...good bye to you..
Sarah,ingat tak dulu kite cakap pasal die kat tuition..Bismillah..Ya Allah, tolong lah mahklukmu yang sudah sesat ni dan tunjukanlah dia ke jalan yang lurus..Amin
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 9:41 PM
Saturday, June 18, 2005
Genting Highland
Went to Genting Highland on Tuesday..On the way there saw Ham and Farah.. They going to port dickson..The journey there was fun..went there with my neighbour and my father friend and ayie,asnim small brother,..i have never gone overseas with a neighbour before but it was fun..since past experience have told us there is not a need to book a hotel room, we went there without no room book..but once we reach there, oh my god, it was pact full..we waited at the genting resort lobby for two hours but there was still no room.blame it on my father..but luckily for us there are rooms at first world hotel..we book the room quickly and proceeded to the hotel..since we have booked a room, we thought that getting a room was easy but we still have to wait for a couple of hours..shit man waiting for a room..the service there so slow...the days spent there was alright.. saw Mr.Lim Kim Siong (spelling rite i guess)there with his family..he took a coach since he does not no the way..the climate there was windy, cold and rainy..but it's alright..the journey back was a terrible day for me..for those who know me, i got motion sickness rite..so, going down a mountain was like hell..i vomitted like about six or seven times..haha..that was yesterday..shit siak..i hate it..i didn't use to be like this but now, i vomit a lot..a little vibration even from the speaker will get me sick..i'm still feeling weak now..haha..so now you see, i may look tough in the outside but i'm really weak in the inside..really, some of my friends knows that if i'm scolded just a little or tegur just a little, i will cry..hahah..can be actor cause i can really cry alot of times..perasan hajar..ahhaahhahahaahahah...K lah..that's all, tomorrow going out with the boobies..watching STD perform at youth park..all the best peeps..
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 11:27 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Psz Performance..
Yesterday, me and fir go and watch psz perform at hong kah community centre at bukit gombak.. amal couldn't make it..on the way there i saw fad, she was out on a date, going harbour front..so far..so took bus 38 and saw fir and izam..went to interchange and wait for the rest.. then saw this two ladies..they were ham sister,farah and his sister friend,kylie..i thought who.. bukit gombak was about 25 station away, so it was a long journey..on the way in the train, we took photoes..haha..arrive at the community centre..wah, so many pple wearing tudung..the organizer was muis and sponser was from this masjid so no wonderlah..that day, i was wearing this blue belt and everyone was simply complimenting on it..haha..kembang member..haha... performance start nearly at two..oh yah, both me and fir ketiak basah...haha..fir asik tanye je tak kalau ketiak die basah...psz was given compliment by this group who already has two albums..forgot thier name hah...thier performance was simply marvelous like any of thier other performance.. fir thought i was having a bored day but no..it was fun..took photoes with farah,kylie and fir..then,me and fir went to mac donald to eat..at the counter was two guys.. when we enter, they senyum lebar..one of the guy called me 'adik'..ade ke muke aku macam adik.. aku rase kau ni dah bengot..whateverlah..eat..then go see them perform again..then out of nowhere, suhaila and tracy came..so we talk talk..suhaila going to sing on talentime..lagu ashanti.. only you...then, off we went to far east burger king..on the way, ham was caught by this hsa guy..fir know him(that's what she said), as her last time boss told her that he is a police.. at bk, we sat for long..desmond was there too..he change siak..the hairstyle all..he was also there at the cc..saw this women wearing g-string and i told fir, helmi and izam..when i want to tell shahiran, helmi say he knows already...haha..then got ice drop to my bra..cold siak.. then off we went to the chinese shop at skool bas stop..saw yana..went to her house cause she wanted to give me somthing which she bought from l.a but that girl so selenger go throw it away..haha..i wonder how she gonna tell it to yan..sat with kylie,shah,farah and farhan..farah and shah compete who have the whitest teeth...it was a draw..farhan than sand lullaby like baa baa black sheep and abc on my hp..hahaha...nak step cute konon..went home cause going out to eat..oh yah, fir called this guy lah up on my hp but then she hang up..sekali he called back so fir ask me to say wrong number..i then say lah "May i talk to Mr.Tan please"..but no one replied so i hung up..then he sms and say that he was in the tunnel inside the train and asked who i was.. so i replied 'wrong number'..then suddenly he replied' U have a sweet voice... Are u sure i don't know u? Haha..Just Kidding..Take care whoever u r..'..fir read the msg and she and i laugh like hell...hahahahahahahahaahfir...fir....
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 10:00 PM
Friday, June 10, 2005
Crap
Had social studies just now...So boring..hmm..later got tuition..Stressful i tell you.. homework still not done..haiyah..tomorrow going out with firz and amal..i'm not too sure whether amal is going or not but i hope she does..we are going to see psz perform at 'hong' something community centre..argh... on the 18th june got tuition outing..got the 'amazing whiz' or rather 'amazing race' around two-third of singapore..but stupid..i can't go..go genting..stupid why go genting i don't want.. on the 17th .got ritz carlton buffet thing work..work for one day for the suria 'pesta perdana' function but haiyah cannot go also..if go can see all the actors but nevermind lah..singapore small can see them anywhere..oh yah, about the 'amazing whiz' thing will be publish in the newspaper..that means our face will come out at berita harian but a pity i never go..but nevermind i hope i will see all my other 'miftahians' in the paper..the race consists of games like bunjee jumping and all and there will be cameras following us all around..fun rite..bunjee jumping.. ahh.. if i'm not wrong one of the destination is the big splash..argh... why can't i go..given $10 for the whole race...oh the tuition camp is cancelled because of this amazing whiz buts its ok.. I hate it..i wanna go..Imagine my face on the paper...even though small but still got my face.. Later tuition and my tuition teacher is my father fren..he's funny and i understand what he teaches not like that Ms.Leon..At least i can answer and do the quetions that he gives...Now, i think in class i can answer a few of the questions given as i am done studying probability.. k lah.. That's all for now..Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 3:55 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
School
School holidays are meant for students to have fun and relax..but nowdays students has to come back to school some for one month for cca's or other programme..what happen to free days without having to wake up early in the morning like any normal day..there is no point of having a holiday if this happens..Singapore,trying to be the best in everything is also best and number one of giving it's people stress...instead of sucking out blood it's money the government is after. increase in this and that..well basically the amount of stress too add up..This holiday have not been going on that well for me...Firstly, have to go to school... then have to retake papers..if i'm at home..i laze around..there's nothing for me to do except for watching tv.. but one thing i'm sure i do not want to sit around and do nothing...if that happens then i will start to daydream which i mostly do nowdays..
Just now went to banquet with amalina..sat and talk about what we are going to do in the future..what course to take..work and life..i reminice back on the old days..yah,i do feel that i want to go to school when i have nothing to do but not now in the year 2005 but two or three years back..those were the most memorable days of my life..meeting and shaping my path of where to go..which friends to make with and all sorts of stuff..in class, 502 i mean, when i see my other classmates having fun with each other, i thought back about my class..tha fun that we had.. evenually, as times passes, i know that one by one they will leave..but this is too fast.. to push away the feeling of lossing those wonderful and amazing feeling in me, i eventually daydreams , what i do best, giving each of my new classmates the role of my 410 classmates like Gary who similarly have the character of azmi..sanjeev as azri..racheal,audrey,mara and other friends who stayed in a group like what me,amal,fir,yana,ida,siti and pard used to do..i miss those times..even though we still hang out and all sorts but it just doesn't feel right..just passing through the old class along the hallway gives me deep feeling of loneliness.. even though i walk across it with a smile but then inside of me..theres this thing which i feel is missing.. Even if now i got ino poly or any other private school, the feeling will still be the same..empty.. well, i'm shedding tears now.. how i wish that i could turn back time..there's nothing i can do to change things..even if i gather all my ex-classmates the feeling would not be the same..it's as though as your loves one have died..now,i have no mood to study in school..at home i can study better and at tuition i can eventually concentrate in maths but in school the environment is different.. well, i guess that no matter how long i type this entry..it could not still make me feel alive and whole again..i think that's all for now..
to ex-410, 2004, and my other school friends.. i guess maybe someday we will forget each other and with each passing day, even if we were at a same place lets say we pass by each other at a shopping mall or sorts i guess maybe we will not remember each other faces anymore...
Posted by ...Do YoU kNoW wHaT i Am... at 11:48 PM
I am Me...
In the world there is no one exactly like me. There are persons who have some parts like me but no one adds up exactly like me. Therefore, everything that comes otu of me is authentically mine because i alone chooses it.I own everything about me.My body including everything i does, my mind, including all my thoughts and ideas, my eyes, including the images of all day behold, my feelings, whatever they might be. Anger, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitment, my mouth and all the words that come out of it. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and other aspects that i do not know. But as long as i am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for the solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.
However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I feel and think at a given moment in time is me.This is authentic and represents where i am at the moment in time.
When I review later how I looked and sounded what i said and did, and how i thought and felt some parts may turn out to be unfitting. I can discard which is unfitting and kept that which proved fitting and invent something new for that which I discarded.
I am me...
